I have just gone through our yearly performance cycle review and some of the best area of improvement that I personally received consist of (from both my peers and superior):
1. To enhance my visibility.
2. To be more strict with contractors. I am seen as being too soft and nice.
3. To enhance my networking beyond electrical circle.
4. To attend all meetings that I am scheduled to attend, regardless of what...
5. To show more energy and stamina
6. To speak more and tell everyone that I am around
7. To be more focus and serious with my job (what the &^$%^*@!). I am not serious all these while?
Anyway...
Well well well... I love feedback as well as critics, but to certain extent, it could be too much for me to handle.
You see guys, the point here... These are all perceptions and those written above could be very very subjective, as to who made such claims, and the way they perceived me... unless something that are supported with facts and evidence.
When the company is making a 360 degree assessment on everyone especially the bosses, it was first perceived as something that is very good and positive for all the staff in the company.
But then when I look closely at the way the system is being executed, there are definitely defects here and there which are widely opened for rooms of improvement.
Hence, to cut my babbling short on this topic, I really want to reiterate on the "visibility" topic.
My question is - Define Visibility?
According to Wikipedia...
In meteorology, visibility is a measure of the distance at which an object or light can be clearly discerned. It is reported within surface weather observations and METAR code either in meters or statute miles, depending upon the country. Visibility affects all forms of traffic: roads, sailing and aviation. Meteorological visibility refers to transparency of air: in dark, meteorological visibility is still the same as in daylight for the same air.
Hahaha... you may be laughing reading the above definition as those are not the one meant by the bosses when they mentioned that I am hardly visible.
My definition is simple - to be seen working, hardworking, good, stylish, confident, charismatic, never say no, deliver as well as hardly against your boss' opinion and/or instructions.
Well, if you disagree with me, just keep it to yourself, I don't want to know.
What I am trying to share here is that, at one point or another... you don't have to be honest with your job or at what you are doing. What matters is what people (I mean your Bosses and colleagues in particular) know and see you are doing that matters. Can I simplify this further? For sure yes...
Just tell your Boss at what you are working on and make sure he knows and appreciates whatever that you are doing, because that really matters in terms of performance.
Working honestly, quietly without bugging any people is no longer perceived as smart or good nowadays, though we Muslims have always been reminded to work base on "LillahiTaala" (or because of Allah the Almighty alone).
To make things worse, even after delivering a very good result, you... still be perceived as not good enough due to not being visible enough to everybody.
In my case, I have reasons to justify why my visibility is being questioned though physically I am a big guy...
The factors to my invisibility are mainly due to:
1. I do not brag at what I am doing though I am a very systematic and procedure-wise engineer.
2. My direct superior is 3 steps higher than my current position, hence not easy for me to get his time
3. I have been alone leading this Electrical Section since the beginning of this project, so I didn't have anyone to delegate and spent more time to tell everybody at what I was doing. I didn't have time for that...
4. I have too much work to do for the company that I tend to forget that people around me start losing sights on me, even my close colleagues.
5. I believe when everything is ok and smooth, people thought you are not doing anything.
6. Those nay-sayers are taking advantage on my less-talk-act-more policy and hence took me for granted. They could ask at least...
7. We hardly care for each other in this big organization. We mainly care about our own ***.
True or not, it's up to you to believe... but to me that is what's happening.
The facts in hand:
1. I completed this project with electrical leading the rest of the other crafts.
2. I did my job, even more than what I had to do...
3. I didn't hurt anybody along the process...
Now when it comes to performance cycle and rating... all those good jobs are forgotten and it's all about who's who... and who will defend you in the board room.
Like it or not... This is the fact that not only me, but everyone is facing... and I am tired of this... but what choice do I have... Am I given the chance to explain myself? I don't think so...
After all the world is not fair to everybody... right...?
Have A Nice Day...
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